Wow.... it sure has been a while since i updated my journal, huh?

over 4 months!! well, quite a lot has happened in those four months, in my defence: I had my birthday (22 yrs and counting... i have accomplished worryingly little...), took my final year exams and graduated university with a 2:1 in Psychology, and have bought tickets to go to Japan for a 2 week holiday with a years teaching over there in mind for next year! well, that sounds like less than it felt... hehe!

i've been mostly worrying about my future, or lack thereof - i really don't know what i want to do, and feel kinda like my parents are more worried about my future than i am! ah well! ^^ i think more people feel a similar lack of ambition to my own than seem to admit it, but who knows, eh? well, its not really lack of ambition, its just... i feel this inescapable pressure to figure out and begin doing WHAT I'LL BE DOING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, RIGHT NOW!! and really haven't found anything that appeals to me crazy amounts thus far. the only thing i really do with a passion is my art, and dream of going to Japan. now the former is all well and good but hardly career material - i know better than anyone that i'm way to limited in what i do to actually make a decent living out of it, and thats fine. and Japan, well, i'm going there (finally!!!!!

), and hopefully will go again for a while after this little taster trip, but thats like saying i really love chocolate - its great, but not exactly the kind of thing you can do for a living. geh. i'm probably going to train to be a teacher, which i know i will enjoy, but im all too aware its really for lack of a better alternative. which is really a little sad in the end!
so, only one thing to do: leave the country and draw even more! WOO!!!
*Daisy*