I've managed it! I got my act together and finished and sent off my application for teacher training! aah, that's a weight off my mind.
Shame that lovely glowy leaf-y autumn that makes you smile seems to have given way to the wet bone-deep cold that threatens for winter... but it could be worse!
Also, this is the perfect weather for both drawing and watching old films. I saw Singin' in the Rain for probably the hundreth time at the weekend, though I'm biding my time before I get out some black-and-whites... Yes, I am a tragic tragic person. 'They don't make 'em like they used to' indeed.
"I'd rather kiss a tarantula."
"You don't mean that."
"I don't- Joe, bring me a tarantula!"
Hee
*Daisy*

So, not much has changed in my life since the last update. although... did you guys hear about [link] s art getting stolen? scary stuff - dude stole from some other people too, and i'm not sure sure if all the artists will know already. i know two should know (na-chan said she'd let the two identified know), but if you guys recognise someone elses work other than [link] and [link] let either them or na-chan know? the guy's been reported now though i think, so you don't need to hassle him or his site. crazy stuff... it would make me paranoid, yet somehow it doesnt! im a silly person, through and through! awful for the artists though. the guy is at [link]
Random news - i've been offered a free exhbition space in a pub in Cambridge! it's insane. in fact, i need to decide what of my old stuff could sell, and work on some new sellables too....ALICE, HELP ME!!!
Still no job, though i may be in the process of getting a voluntary position at a local school, which would be nifty!
aah, i went to visit alice (aka Fiverart) at the weekend - twas really fun, but its made me sorta want to go back to japan again. desperately. heh.
^^
*Daisy*

whoo, finally getting round to updating this journal! so, im back from japan (obviously) which was the most awesome of awesome things ever - it was so worth all the hype, i had a total blast with my wonderous friend alice! ^^ now i want to go back again! im possibly applying for the JET programme - just need to get my ass in gear and decide if im too much of a coward to go ahead with it. im pretty sure that as amazing as living and working out there for a year would be it'd also have some pretty impressive lows. that happened during my time working and living in germany, and that was only for 4 months and i was staying with a friends family, so im pretty sure that to go with a amazing life changing experience type things i'd also have to be prepared for some pretty heavy loneliness and depression out there if i go ahead with it... so im pondering. going to have to decide soon! also applying for my teacher training now - ive decided to go ahead with it. i figure that just having the fears i have about the whole thing is a good start - if i didn't care about being a good teacher i wouldn't be worried about whether or not i was a good teacher, so thats as good a start as anything!
i'm job searching right now - did you guys know we're in a recession right now? crazy huh? i CANNOT find a job thats willing to take me for the life of me, it sucks... although i did actually get rejected twice in the past week (once by phone, once by email), which going by the utter ignoring of my existence i've had up til now suggests things are looking up! i hate how people whose vacancies you apply to usually don't even acknowledge you exist - its utterly depressing. as such, im abnormally happy having been rejected!
new art soon i hopes.... ^^
*Daisy*

Ah, i'm finally off to Japan! yaaaay! I'm leaving with the awesomeness that is [link] at 6am tomorrow (oh god, oh god, no-one should ever have to see that time of morning, but i can take it for Japan's sake). I cannot tell you how much i need this trip! I mean, even ignoring the many many years i've spent wishing i could go, it's just going to be sooo nifty! Plus, i recently attended a funeral, and its all got on top of me a little bit. Goodbye's are always sad, arent they? Ahh well, such is life. Doesn't really change things much in the end, i've just been a bit... well, depressed, really. It's always harder when it's someone you actually really care about, but that's just the way the cookie crumbles... what a wierd saying! Would've liked a cookie at the funeral actually - they had a buffet, which i considered the height of irony, because Ron hated buffets with a passion. He refused to accept them, and insisted on the general necessity and basic human right that was a proper meal, every meal time. None of those silly buffet things, that only give you scraps of things and never but NEVER have enough cake!
Ah, random detour.
This trip is going to be AWESOME!!!! I shall return with stories, photos, and hopefully new art! Here's to hoping, eh? ^^
*Daisy*

Wow.... it sure has been a while since i updated my journal, huh? over 4 months!! well, quite a lot has happened in those four months, in my defence: I had my birthday (22 yrs and counting... i have accomplished worryingly little...), took my final year exams and graduated university with a 2:1 in Psychology, and have bought tickets to go to Japan for a 2 week holiday with a years teaching over there in mind for next year! well, that sounds like less than it felt... hehe! i've been mostly worrying about my future, or lack thereof - i really don't know what i want to do, and feel kinda like my parents are more worried about my future than i am! ah well! ^^ i think more people feel a similar lack of ambition to my own than seem to admit it, but who knows, eh? well, its not really lack of ambition, its just... i feel this inescapable pressure to figure out and begin doing WHAT I'LL BE DOING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, RIGHT NOW!! and really haven't found anything that appeals to me crazy amounts thus far. the only thing i really do with a passion is my art, and dream of going to Japan. now the former is all well and good but hardly career material - i know better than anyone that i'm way to limited in what i do to actually make a decent living out of it, and thats fine. and Japan, well, i'm going there (finally!!!!! ), and hopefully will go again for a while after this little taster trip, but thats like saying i really love chocolate - its great, but not exactly the kind of thing you can do for a living. geh. i'm probably going to train to be a teacher, which i know i will enjoy, but im all too aware its really for lack of a better alternative. which is really a little sad in the end!
so, only one thing to do: leave the country and draw even more! WOO!!!
*Daisy*